Here

I found out later that aurora borealis was all it was cracked up to be.

I saw photos popping up on my facebook feed as I waited for Los Lobos to take the stage.

I thought “the sky is on fire and here I am stuck at a concert with one of my favorite bands.”

This wondrous sight had passed and I will have passed before I get another chance.

And I had my Mary Oliver moment. 

I have some from time to time.

It is when my processing of some odd thought turns itself to beauty.

I thought how my obvious mortality, the signs of my aging,

are undeniable.

But, also, I am, ironically, either moments or decades away from my appointed time,

whatever that means.

But I don’t despair. I find myself feeling joyful for the future,

but inexplicably elated as I sit and hear the sounds of Lobos first song.

I lose myself in the moment of saying this may be the last time for this band,

or for hearing a band out,

or hearing a song,

Or

this could be the first day of the best 30 years of my life

and I am excited not for one possibility over the other,

but it brought me to the realization of just how blessed

I am to be right here in the sitting at the show.

And also how blessed I am to be right here,

right now,

Here

Here

I found out later that aurora borealis was all it was cracked up to be.

I saw photos popping up on my facebook feed as I waited for Los Lobos to take the stage.

I thought “the sky is on fire and here I am stuck at a concert with one of my favorite bands.”

This wondrous sight had passed and I will have passed before I get another chance.

And I had my Mary Oliver moment. 

I have some from time to time.

It is when my processing of some odd thought turns itself to beauty.

I thought how my obvious mortality, the signs of my aging,

are undeniable.

But, also, I am, ironically, either moments or decades away from my appointed time,

whatever that means.

But I don’t despair. I find myself feeling joyful for the future,

but inexplicably elated as I sit and hear the sounds of Lobos first song.

I lose myself in the moment of saying this may be the last time for this band,

or for hearing a band out,

or hearing a song,

Or

this could be the first day of the best 30 years of my life

and I am excited not for one possibility over the other,

but it brought me to the realization of just how blessed

I am to be right here in the sitting at the show.

And also how blessed I am to be right here,

right now,

Here